I just don’t understand men sometimes.
Mr ONS and I are casual friends right now but the sexual attraction is there. I do think we do hang out quite a lot and we click so effortlessly.
I do wonder how it would be like if we get together and have said jokingly to Mr ONS a few times but the fool just laughs it off.
Am I that bad? You can screw me but you can’t be with me?!?!
Asshole.
I have a big confession to make. I have never encountered the big O. I have encountered mini shocks, something pleasant and all but never had the big orgasm where ladies all around have been raving about.
Why?
I just don’t get it. I am not a prude, I read literotica everyday coupled with porn. I masturbate once a week and I do have dessert with my men. *licks lips*
Why?
Any tips guys and gals?

(pic taken from flickr)
Mr Ons and i have been meeting up for casual lunches, dinners and drinks. Nothing serious, and we have stopped all naughty business. Unfortunately the sexual tension keeps building up between us. I would tingle when he brushes his hand against me as he tries to shield me away from the angry crowd when we’re in town, from when our hands accidentally touch each other when reaching for the bill. Innocent touches yet not very innocent at all. We stopped having sex because I didnt want to feel like a whore, having sex with someone in which i’m not having a relationship with. But why do i really feel like jumping him? I want to tear off his clothes, to kiss him from the top of his head till his toes, to caress his lovely penis, to biting the tender part of his neck and riding him, with his mouth suckling one of my tits and caressing the other with his other hand.
Damn. I feel like a horny bitch. Must stop such sinful thoughts. This sucks.
(Picture taken from Flickr)
Have you ever been so tempted to have a great shag with a stranger? I have added someone (a reader apparently) to my msn list and we have been chatting and flirting with every night. Its flattering, he has seen my picture on msn and he isn't running in the opposite direction.
So… We have been chatting about sex and all and he mentioned that I was the kind of lady he would wham anytime, infact he has invited me many times to go out. Its interesting, because i am actually feeling turned on by words and all. Perhaps i have grown more open minded after Mr ONS.
I am seriously thinking of meeting him and having a great romp. Is this weird? Being turned on by a guy I hardly know by his words? What is wrong with me?! Have any of you guys felt the same way?
Basically Mr ONS apologised. He didnt expect things to happen so fast and i guess the liquor had lots to do with it. Apparently, he had sincerely wanted to get to know me better but was afraid after the whole ONS thing, things will be weird.
As we sat chatting at the Mcdonalds cafe located below Lido, i was basically looking at him. Thank god, he didnt look bad. You know what they say about clubs… everyone looks good. He isnt someone extremely good looking but he has the charisma and the sweet smile. He knew how to dressed well and apparently he is a Manager.
He asked if we could meet up for coffee or he could bring me out for dinner sometime. Which i agreed. I wouldnt mind making a new friend or a little bit of dating. I told him if he was looking for a fuck buddy, he was looking at the wrong direction. He assured me that he wasnt.
He sent me home that night and left with a gentle peck on my forehead…
Before I divulge any information about Mr ONS. I decided to talk more about Smiley cause i see Kookabaru confused. LOL. I met Smiley on my first date. Which was when I was 18. That was a good number of years ago. We tried dating for a while but decided to remain just as friends…
Till now we still do keep contact. Not superbly close but always there.
OMG! Remember my confession?
Something dramatic happened!
Apparently Mr ONS has my number. He called and asked if we could meet for dinner to chat tonight. OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am ashamed of myself. I did something that i thought i will never do.
I hate myself now.

I never thought i would ever have a one night stand. I had too much alcohol on friday and i was dancing with a guy rather intimately. Next thing i knew, we were kissing madly. He offered to continue the drinking at his place when the club ended. I really did not expect things to turn out that way.
Headed to his place, a condominium and he opened a bottle of wine and put on a vcd. We sat chatting slowly sipping our wine. I guess all the alcohol and wine kicked in and i start to feel drowsy, high and woozy. He started to kiss me and i kissed back.
One thing lead to another and we ended in his bed. I cant even remember if we even used protection.
In the morning, when i woke up, i felt very very very very guilty and dirty. I just put on my clothes and rushed out. He was still sleeping when I left.
I should not have succumbed to my desires. I went to the doctors and got the morning after pill. Am scheduling a checkup for any diseases soon. I always believed that sex should be with someone you love or at least fancy. Not with a total stranger.
date.
I have always had a healthy appetite and most of my girlfriends had warned me against eating the way I do when I meet men.
My best friend was going on a blind date and she had begged me to accompany her and her date in return would get his buddy to accompany him too. I felt crazy for agreeing to her rather silly request. I stayed over at her place the night before and we did the girly stuffs that girls did then. We chose our clothes and model them out and practiced coy looks. I never felt more naive and innocent then.
Thus, the next day, we were all togged up in our finest and trying to look ladylike and demure. I, a rather rough tomboy was uncomfortable in my heels and makeup. My friend as i shall now affectionately term her as “Shunu“, was totally in her element. She looked great, graceful and demure with her coy batting of the eyelashes.
How were our dates? They were 2 rather nice gentlemen. Shunu’s date was “Shuai-Ge“, a rather charming and cheeky fella who was obviously charming his way thru Shunu’s heart with his witty jokes. My date was a rather observant gentleman, “Smiley“. He had the sweetest smile. He may not be as witty and charming as Shuai-Ge but he could tell how i was feeling by observing me.
We went to Swensens for lunch that day. I was craving a lot of food but as reminded by Shunu, I had to act demure and not like a barbarian. I followed her cue and ordered a chicken salad and soup while the guys ordered ribs and chicken. I was so hungry! and yet whenever I whispered to Shunu to perhaps share a main course, she told me to eat after the date, afterall she said, women are supposed to be dainty eaters.
I was basically eyeballing the guys’ meals. Shuai-Ge and Shunu were busy flirting while Smiley was slowly savouring his delicious chicken. Suddenly he looked at me and smiled. He cut a piece of chicken and fed me. I was absolutely shocked! I didnt expect him to notice that i was hungry. We then shared the meal, it was one of the sweetest thing a guy had done for me. Not by sharing the meal but being able to see and feel my true feelings.
I had a memorable date that day. We all parted after lunch but Smiley and I still kept dating and that would be another post.